Happy day before day before new year's eve! :D

Christmas break is rolling along quite nicely. I'm missing Sean a lot, but other than that I'm feeling good! :D I've had lots of fun hanging with friends and family and going to tech and such. Been keeping busy that's for sure, but then again not much to write about...

I'm actually a little excited for school to start again. Wow...I'm such a nerd, but I guess I'm just excited to have a class with Libby! :D We've never had a class together before and so yeah. Haha. It should be quite great! :D

Well...I think I'm going to head off and watch some TV with my cousin.

Love! :D

You don't look different but you have changed...

"The hardest part of living is just taking breathes to stay." I couldn't agree more...

Any boy that I've ever been close to or that has played a big part in my life either hates me or doesn't care anymore.
I must be defective.

I've been crying again. More than ever. How can someone decide to hate in what seems like over night? But it happens I guess. This whole thing with Sean is just like a break up because I love him just as much as I loved Rich just with a different kind of love. And it just feel like my heart is breaking after it finally got sewed back up. And I didn't even get the good happy stuff before this.

Goodbye Sean. I'll miss everything we used to have, but it obviously doesn't mean anything to you anymore. You have Claire. And she's enough. Maybe someday we'll find what we once had...but it will be hard, because the Sean that was my best friend doesn't seem to be there anymore. I miss him. And I love him. I always will.

Goodbye.

I have to admit it's getting better...it's getting better all the time

Hahahahaha! Right now, Sean is at school doing lights with Taylor and he has sent me 6 creeper pictures of Taylor and one video of him. It's really really funny. And it's making me laugh a lot! I'm cracking up. And I'm supposed to be writing a paper for Latin...but I'm just laughing too hard! Haha!

So things are going pretty good. I had a semi crappy yesterday, but then Zoey saved me by calling me up and we hung out. This week has been good because Origins, the one act, started up. We finally had play practice again! I have something to do with my life again! Woo hoo! :D For this show there are six people doing lights! Crazy! And I'm still the only girl. So there will still be a ton of sexist jokes. Thanks Sean and Taylor! Haha. Jk. I don't mind that much. It's all in good fun.

I love Libby a lot. It seems like when life is falling down she's there to push it back up for me. :] I love you darling! :D

I felt good today...so so good. :]

Leave it to me to pick the weird picture after Libby picks the good one. :] Haha. So this is me and Libby last night all dressed up for formal. It was a perfect night. I could not imagine it better. :] We got ready and ate supper at Melanie's house and then we went to the dance. So, I acted like a total ho...but that's ok! Because I felt good about myself. I felt pretty...and you have no idea how much that means. I didn't care if anyone laughed at me because I was having fun, and I just felt good. :] I found everyone that I had promised I would dance with and I slow danced with a certain someone. ;] (Thanks Zoey) It was just absolutely amazing! I'm still on a high. Ah, perfect. :D

The snow on my heart has finally melted, and I can see the light.

I felt good this day...so so good. :]

And I Will Wait and Watch the Hours Fall In a Hundred Separate Lines

I'm not sure about life anymore...sometimes I feel so happy...and then I want to do nothing more than hide under my covers and cry.

And I'm tired as shit. All the time.

And it snowed for the first time. I really hate snow. I really hate winter...it's just so depressing. Ugghhh.

I don't know what's wrong with me. I have a great life...why can't I just be happy? I try. I really do....