I don't want people to hate me

:( It bugs me a lot when people hate me. Even if they have a legit reason. Ugh...I just...I don't even know. I'm so sorry to anyone I've wronged...I know I can be a bitch, but I am only human. I make mistakes and I don't know how to fix them besides saying that I'm sorry. If there was anything else I could do I would do it. I'm so sick of hurting people and ruining friendships. I wouldn't be surprised if I have no friends left soon cause I don't know why anyone would want to stick around me...I feel so awful about myself. I raelly honestly do. I almost want to tell my friends to not be friends with me. Cause it seems like everyone I talk to gets hurt. And it's always my fault. Ugh...I just almost threw up again. If you could all please forgive me. I want nothing more than your forgiveness. I'm so sorry. I wish there was a word that ment sorry but stronger. If you could just forgive me. I would feel a little better. I don't deserve anyone...I'm awful...I'm so sorry...