The separate pieces of me are falling everywhere

If I thought I was ever being torn in two by Izzy and Ginny...boy was I wrong. I'm seeing what it's like to really be torn in two by two people I care for...more than most people could probably imagine. It's killing me...and I'm sinking...and I don't know what to do anymore.

I've tried to keep myself out of the middle. I listen to Libby while she talks about Sean, and I listen to Sean while he talks about Libby. I don't know if they've noticed but that's all I'm doing is listening. I refuse to make any comments to either of them because they are two of best friends. And I don't want any of this to make them stop talking to me if they need to. That's not what I'm saying at all...I just don't know anymore...I don't know where to go from here.

I was talking about all this to Brian the other night...cause he's really the one that's most removed from this whole situation so I knew I could talk to him. I told him that the world is spinning out of control and I don't know what to do...and his reply reminded me why I love that boy so much. Haha. Here it is:
"I know that they are your two best friends, but you can't let there problems drag you so far down. But I know that's not how it works...that you're gonna feel bad about things that happen between them two. You know what makes you so amazing, Natasha? God gave you the gift of true love and affection...as in, you have so much love for these two that it hurts so bad to see them fight...it's probably tearing you apart inside....but I don't think God would have given you this gift if he didn't think you could handle it (and just to make sure you kept a grip on life if you couldn't handle it, he made you scared of blood and wrists...ahahhahaha) but I know you have the strength to overcome this. You're a strong amazing person."

Libby wrote a post about how bad she is hurting...and Sean made a comment about how she isn't hurting near as bad as him and he doesn't write posts about how bad he's hurting and everything. What I don't get...their break up was mutual...so wtf? Sean...from listening to both of you I can guarantee you that she is hurting just as bad as you. You are both hurting equally. She writes about it on her blog because this is way of getting it all out. You were it on your sleeve everyday and show everybody how upset you are. Is that a bad thing? If you get to extreme about it yes. But not always. Libby chooses to not show everyone how sad she is and chooses to get her feeling out through writing on her blog. You need to be ok with that. She is hurting just as bad as you and needs a way to get it out.

I just really need some help...I haven't hurt this bad in a long time. And what Brian said helps...but I'm having trouble believing it. If I was so strong I wouldn't be sitting here crying over this.