Maybe it's not my weekend. But it's gonna my year.

I just wrote this as a note on facebook and decided to put it on here.

TEN things I wish I could say to 10 different people:

1. What I would do with out you? Die. I love you so so much. I don't know if you truly understand how much you mean to me. We have had so many times together. California? Best trip of my entire life. No joke. I don't know if anything will ever compare to that. All of our songs: I gotta a feeling, Don't Trust Me, I know you want me, a whole new world, she had the world, andy you're a star, human, and good day sunshine! Two of those reminded me of yet another thing. Family camp! Remember this year how we sang out own version of Don't Trust Me? And how we got in trouble for singing She Had The World cause it talked about kissing before you are married? Ridiculous!! Haha. You are a major part of who I am. We met back in 5th grade and I remember when you said that The Beatles were your favorite band and I knew of them and liked them too. They probably weren't my favorite band then...but as we became friends they became my favorite band and are now a huge part of my life. That's only one example of how you made me who I am. I could have never made it through life without you. You are one of the most amazing people I've ever met. You are so beautiful, inside and out. I love you!

2. Oh gosh. You are by far the one of the first things that comes to mind my mind when anybody says any of these things: summer of 2009, big sister, best friends, beautiful, amazing....and the list goes on. You are...I don't even know how to put it into words. You have helped me so much. You've listened to me cry so many more times than anyone deserves. You are incredible. Our songs: Shake It and Poker Face! :D I would have never made it through this summer without you. I would be dead now if it wasn't for you. You, like Angie, really have no idea how much you mean to me. And I wish there was some way I could tell you how much you mean to me, but I'm not sure there is a way. I look up to you so so much. Please don't graduate and leave me! I'm so needy!! I love you!

3. My best guy friend. I love you. You never fail to make me laugh. And you are one of the few boys who will put up with me crying and my cramps and everything. Haha. You are an amazing friend and person. I wish you could see how amazing you are. I know my family wants me to be in love with you, but I'm not at all. And I don't mean that as an insult. It's just that you are more of a brother. And it's great to have a guy friend that I know will never break my heart. You are so amazing and talented. Don't worry about doing lights by yourself because you will be fine. And I'll be here to help as much as I can. :] I love you!

4. I did hate you for a long time also. And I regret every second that I did. I don't think I could live without you now. Omg. Rapeville was amazing, and so was the car alarm! And the mother fucking intersection! And the monster! Hahahahahaha! Too many funny times! I laugh when people say it takes a long time to make friends and simply say to them, "Well, 4 months ago I hated Zoey with a deep passion and now she is one of my best friends and my wife! So suck it!" I've never met somebody so much like myself in so many ways. Personality wise, we like almost all the same stuff, and we have a lot of the same family shit (yay for douche bag dads). I've never told you this but I look up to you a lot. We are a lot the same but at the same time you are so much more...out going and crazy. I wish I could be more like you. :] You are an amazing person. I love you so much.

5. Darling. What to say about you. You are amazing, beautiful, everything. We've gone through so many things together. We have gone from being in Canada writing songs about how creepy Mrs. Anderberg to me breaking down crying and you taking me to the Wilkins twins to make me feel better. You have no idea how much you mean to me. We need to go to California together! Just saying. Even though you make fun of me and that hurts my feelings I love you. And I couldn't live with out you.

6. Just tonight you rapped me. Like...that was as close to legit rap as I have ever been. It was kind of scary not going to lie. Haha. But I still love you. Even though you are kind of a dick. You also can be really really sweet. You try to help me understand what's going on when my world is crashing around me. And you are so incredible adorable in everything you do. And I don't mean that in a creepy way at all. I just...I don't now. I just love you.

7. We fight a lot. Haha. And I know I over react to things I probably shouldn't...but that's just me I guess. With how much we fight I sometimes wonder why we are still friends. And then I think...oh my shit! Of course we are still friends. All the times we've had together?? Besides Angie you are my oldest friend that is still one of my best friends. You are truly amazing and I know that I can go to for anything. I love you so much.

8. You are the only friend that has ever held me while I cried. And I love you so much for that. When I hurt you tried to make me feel better by the simplest things. And that's all I could have asked for. You are truly amazing. And I love you so much.

9. So maybe not one you would have expected, but hey that's me. Hmm...I don't know where to even start this one. I guess I just want to say I'm really glad that we are friends after all the shit that happened between us. Back in the day, you were everything to me. I think I liked you a lot more than you ever knew. Heck liked you? I loved you. You were the first boy I ever love. And you were the reason for my first broken heart. The reason I spent so many days crying and doing nothing else. I used to hate you for it. And blame you for it, but I don't anymore. I have obviously forgiven. What people don't get is that I never expected us to be together forever, but that didn't dull the pain of what happened you know? But even after how depressed I was...I don't regret it. You were my first kiss, my first love, my first...everything. And I wouldn't trade it for the world.

10. So...this is for Taylor Trimble even though he doesn't have a facebook...and I know he'll never read this Oh you silly silly boy. You never fail to make me laugh cause you are such a little nerd! And I mean that in the nicest of ways. I think you are amazing adorable. And I'm not just saying that because of the reason you all are thinking! You are so amazingly smart. I can't even comprehend how your brain works because you are so beyond my level. And I've never met a nicer person in my life. I've never heard you say anything mean to anyone. I mean we would talk about how the cheerleaders were hoes all the time...but that doesn't count because it's totally true. Haha. I'm going to cry when you and Libby leave me this year. :( I love you!

NINE things about myself:
1. My Brian thinks in music and numbers. Words aren't too good with me.
2. I'm way too emotional.
3. I would be dead without my friends.
4. I love the Beatles with a passion.
5. I trust way too easily.
6. I give my heart away way too easily.
7. I don't like myself very much.
8. I'm kind of annoying.
9. I love life.

EIGHT ways to win my heart:
1. Be adorable.
2. Be nice.
3. Don't make me feel really stupid.
4. Make me feel like I can go to you for anything.
5. Listen to me while I cry.
6. Make everything we do together an adventure.
7. Love my friends as much as I do.
8. Love me.

SEVEN things that cross my mind a lot:
1. Friends.
2. Theatre.
3. Band.
4. Interp. :/
5. Music.
6. Love.
7. Boys. :P

SIX things I do before I fall asleep:
1. Get into pj's.
2. Brush my teeth.
3. Take my contacts out.
4. Watch tv.
5. Pray.
6. Think.

FIVE people [or groups of people] who mean a lot.
1. Angie.
2. Libby.
3. Sean.
4. My family
5. All my other friends!

FOUR things you're wearing right now.
1. Skinny jeans.
2. Zoey's shirt. :P
3. Sweatshirt.
4. Socks.

THREE songs that you listen to often. [Currently]
1. Anything by All Time Low.
2. Anything by The Beatles.
3. Anything by Panic! At The Disco.

TWO things you want to do before you die.
1) Change some body's life.
2) Walk across Abbey Road barefoot.

ONE confession.
1. I'm not sure if I can take it.