Done.

Forever.

How did it end up like this?

First day of semester tests was today. I got a high enough grade to get an A in precalc which made me really happy! :D English was a breeze of coarse. And then there was chemistry...

I got a D on the test giving me a C in the class overall. I've never gotten a C before. When did I get so stupid? It kills me.

I'm finding more and more reasons to hate myself.

You are surrounded by beauty. Just look around.

Did you know that YOU are a beautiful thing?

Because it's true. And even though I'm frightened I know I'll make it through.

All I have to do is think of you. All of you.

But I didn't let it get to me. :/

Happy one year anniversary of the last time my dad talked to me.

And the last time a boy kissed me.

It's great how those things happen on the same day, isn't' it?

The Simpleness of Life

I do enjoy springtime.

I don't enjoy my mother.

The importance of life.

Today Taylor flat out told me that I'm the one in charge of light crew next year. He had kind of been hinting at it but now it's official. And my head is spinning...

I am so so so excited! That means that no one besides D is above me. I love lights and they are a great way to express myself. And I guess I feel...special...? Haha. That seems lame but I feel really important and respected. Which is really nice because it seems like theatre is really the only place that I have worth. So it's nice that I have a lot of worth. :]

On the other hand...I'm frightened. I don't want to let them down. And I feel like my head can't hold near as much knowledge as it needs too. I feel like Taylor is going to come back to see shows and just be like are you kidding me? But I'm more excited than I am scared...

Ask Callie...he gave me that news and I was just kind of in shock. Haha.

I'm important. :]

I hurt everywhere....

So yesterday was the last day of the Theatre II show. Hallelujah! But it was a very eventful last day. So I was walking past a wall that was part of the set and I bumped into it slightly but just kept walking past it. But this wall thought it would be a great idea to fall on top of me. The wall literally fell on top of me. It was probably one of the scariest things that has ever happened to me. And everyone was sure that I had a concussion, and I will admit I felt a little loopy and confused but mostly I was just tired. I kept almost falling asleep everywhere and someone would run up and shake me awake. So Libby finally got my mom to bring me to the doctor. And I didn't have a concussion, so that's good. Just a big bump on my head and an sore body. But hey! A wall landing on me could have ended a lot worse. :]